Summertime Blues

Today is not going well at all. I'm bored. And my kids continually call, "Mama" in their whiny voice. UGHHHHHHHH!! I am ready for a schedule. I thought I would plan my summer out soo well. "Free play" for the boys always ends up with fighting and not sharing.

This is one of those days that I truly can envy the working mom. I must need Prozac or something. Maybe I'm hormonal like my gyno said. I just feel the need for space from these little guys!! Jordan has had a bad attitude the minute I suggested doing some reading. I resent that. Bad choice of words. I just want him to simply read a few minutes a day.

My original plan was to do some extra character training on a few issues. Well, that hasn't played out. I'm just Ms. Negativity today. Sorry.

I even told my hubby maybe we should go year round. I figured it out. We would have more breaks and could do 15 days of school a month appoximately to give us our 180 required by law. But there's always that one grand notion that crashes to earth in the vehicle of reality. Kinda like my summer. . .

Yeah. . . those hormones are kicking. I feel like I'm screaming inside, "I want some space!!!"

Our situation is this: my mom and my husband's parents live in another state. My sister has her hands full and running over with a 24 year old and 19 year old who don't work. Relatives of my husbands live within driving distance but we don't have the gas money to go visit them. I have friends at church but everyone works or has the money to keep their kids in sports or camps or just busy. Babysitting other people's kids is NOT my forte and in the past creates problems with my youngest! So, my kids have me. Poor things.

Okay, this blog will get brighter. I promise. No more negativity. . . at least, I'm outlawing it for tomorrow's agenda!!!

Tomorrow is another day. Maybe a brighter day, I hope. I am a schedule-oriented person. I function knowing what needs to be done when.

Falling off the Face of the. . . Blog?

Okay. So. . . I was doing good with my blogging and got blindsided by the ending of our school year. And then, VBS, etc. etc. At least, that's the excuse I'm giving out. So, sorry. I was tired and sooo were my little guys. I don't know who needed the break more me. . . or them. I vote for myself. I was ready for a major break. I will never never do school into June. I know and admire the homeschool mamas out there who relentlessly school through the summer. God bless you! I am bowing down kissing your toesies! That's not ME! Sorry. . . .once again. I love a change of pace and my mind and my house are begging for someone to come and clean out our cobwebs.

Jordan on the other hand wants to start second grade. He's a bookie like me. What can I say? He loves a new book--even if they are school books. Poor guy. I, too, am ready to start. I've been drooling and oogling my teacher's book from "My Father's World"--the new curriculum we're going to start in August.

Alas, my brain has got to reorganize and revamp not only itself but all the rooms in my house. I want soo much for this next year to be fun. I want to get the schooling done but enjoy my kids as well. I think I spent too much time on discipline and respect and not enough on just showing them how much fun learning can be.

I've been re-organizing (in my brain) how I want things set up for next year. Yesterday I went through stack after stack after stack of papers. What to do with all those papers? Of course, Jordan's drawings and school tests, forms, and worksheets I keep. But I threw out a garbage bag full of papers. Actually I had to sneakily throw them out--Jordan is a bad pack rat. I mean he keeps everything including receipts.

Well, it's great to be blogging again. My wonderful hubby has bought us a new computer--finally--so I'll be breaking it in, uploading pics and hopefully re-arranging stuff on the blog. It's great to be back!!!